Sunday, 23 November 2014

Music, me and my career

Growing up most of my career and life has been focused on music,  so everybody assumes that my main passion in life is music, but they are wrong, very wrong!

Music has been important to me, although it wasn't my planned career, music just became my career by accident. It was more so a hobby that I loved; but on a deeper level it was also therapy for me. I used music to let go of some of my pain. Music was my release.

My main passion was in film making; writing and developing films, even a bit of acting. Now my music career is coming to an end, it is time I started to focus on my main passion in life. Films!

My music career may last several more years, who knows? I have always kept pushing with my music career, even when it became difficult because I knew it was a way into my main career path; but as I begin to 'recover' from my past, and put everything right, I need to move away from the limbo I have been living in for so very long. Here's to future projects!

Wednesday, 12 November 2014


I want to break free from my past
I want to let go of all the pain, sadness and misery
I want to breathe in life and live
I want to find my wings and escape
I want to fly away and never have to cry again
I want the pain to end before I do
I want to find some where to belong
I want to find the person I belong to
I don't want to be surrounded by people who ignore & loathe me
I don't want to be isolated anymore
I want to be with someone who wants me
I want to be wanted
I want to be loved and feel safe
I want my nightmares to end
I want the pain of today to become my yesterday
And for this to happen I have to admit and say out loud
"I am broken"!
All the people around me have broken me
But I will fix myself, then I will run and run and keep on running, until I can fly!