Today is the 6th anniversary of my debut digital single, 'Adagio of hope'. I used this single to try to raise money for an 'arts/writing' project in Gaza, unfortunately the project didn't survive, partly due to the never ending on going situation in Gaza, and this single was a slow burner, meaning that it took a while before people started to listen to it and like it! Happy anniversary Adagio of hope ❤❤❤
Today, December 6th, is the 17th anniversary of my debut classical album, 'Breath of life'. I can't believe it was released 17 years ago in 2004. I'm really proud of this album, but I have a love/hate relationship with it. The hate comes not from the music, but from the MD of the company behind it, he caused so much trouble he almost ruined my career, but he was a paranoid schizophrenic who would later go on to kill himself, which is very sad. Even though he caused problems, I hope he's at peace.
Not many people know this but there was a follow-up from this album and a second album was released, but it got pulled early on because I got ill and had to take a break. The 'Breath of Life' album was all about my classical voice and the different styles and sounds I can mimic and copy, and it mixed old and new styles together. It went down really well because it didn't have one bad review 😀
This album is still available to buy as a CD, but I don't get a penny of the money as its officially discontinued! There is a chance that the second album could get re-released too 😀 Happy 17th birthday 'Breath of life' 😀❤
2020 was supposed to be 'My year' 😁😃 My 'Comeback' year (that's a joke), sadly the pandemic came and ruined everything. I thought I was going to die and everything was over! I never thought this day would come back, especially as all the rules around this pandemic has made everything so damned difficult.
I didn't let anyone know about this planned release just in case something went wrong, and I no longer publicly share my plans or goals online or openly, because people try to ruin and destroy you and your work because of jealousy. I will only share accomplishments from now on.
This sacred aria is called, 'Requiem aeternam' it is written by Verdi and is part of his truly beautiful Requiem. We have only released a small section of this aria, this is the most haunting piece. The full aria is the last aria of the Requiem and it lasts for around 15 minutes, and its a hugely dramatic piece. I truly love it and its so difficult because near the end of the aria, you have to sing a note that has to be heard above 200 other voices and instruments 😨😲 The name of the aria is 'Libera me', but we've only released a small section of the aria.
This digital single had to be recorded in an unusual way. The orchestra and choir had to sing/perform on their own, then their pieces were played and I had to sing along; all on my own 😯 So this 'Live' recording is layered together. We did completely stop and start during the recording, that's why, if you listen carefully, you can hear me singing before the music comes back. What you're hearing is my headset giving me the note in advance, so I don't lose my pitch 😀
This is the official return of my music career 😎 I'm including the link to my single from Amazon (UK), as Amazon is the biggest online shop in the world ❤❤❤
Is it bad that I do believe I can do anything! That I can achieve my goals? So many people are afraid to go after their dreams because they're afraid of failing and people laughing at them! I don't have this problem, I honestly couldn't give a shit if people laugh at me! My only problem is worrying how people will attack me because that is what always happens! I have to try and second guess what people will do to hurt me and sabotage my work, not because of some type of low self-esteem thing I'm suffering from, but from experience, because this is what happens.
I have had people try to blackmail mail me, entrap me, threaten to sell sex stories about me. I've even had threats of rape and people coming to my home, when they think I'm alone to try and break in so they can sexually assault me!
Am I a bad person because I don't wait to get my peers permission to go after my dreams and goals? Am I a bad person because I don't care what other people think of me or because I don't care what lies they say about me? Several people have told me that I have a bad attitude because I don't care what others think of me! Am I a bad person because I believe in myself and my abilities? Am I a bad person because when I have a dream I put an action plan together to make that dream a reality? Most people are held back by their own fears and insecurities, but I am not. I do not wait for other people's approval, but I am held back by the actions of other people's hate! It's hard knowing you're going to get attacked, but knowing how to protect yourself is key! I'm searching for that key, to know how to protect myself
